SUBSTANCE ABUSE RECOVERY CHALLENGES – MY STORY
would have thought that after 12 years of being sober, I would return
to drinking alcohol? I have been sober for 12 years and in these 12
years I have gotten married and had two children. My life had routine
and was even helping others to successfully put their lives in order. I
was doing well according to what people saw on the outside. However, the
inside was a different story.
On the inside, I would always
remember how my alcohol and weed made me feel good. I started to forget
about all the negative effects of alcohol and weed. Family and financial
stress also began to creep in. I started questioning if this is how my
life is supposed to be, "mundane, structured and limited fun". I missed
the fun out there at the night clubs and drinking spots. My television
also did not help because there would be all these adverts on alcohol.
People would also come to me for assistance and the stories they told
reminded me of the "good old days". I started to believe that I am not
an alcoholic and I can therefore drink just like anyone who is not.
day came when I decided to go back to drinking. I remember it as if it
was yesterday. The feeling of the alcohol down my throat and the relief
of holding down my desire for over 12 years disappeared. It gave me a
sense of freedom, until I started losing trust from the ones I love. I
was going down an endless pit. I could sense and feel the disappointment
of people who looked up to me and this brought in more pressure which I
could only suppress or deal with through drinking more. On the other
hand, I enjoyed the freedom and liberation I experienced from drinking,
whilst my former friends from 12 years ago were excited that I have re-joined the pack.
struggle continues, and I am currently figuring out what went wrong and
I strongly believe I will overcome my alcohol relapse one of these
days. The battle is not easy but I have come to appreciate my 12 years
of sobriety and look to it with a renewed sense of vigour, hope and a
source of inspiration that indeed I will overcome my drinking.
you are in a similar situation like mine and you want to quit, or you
know someone who is, I encourage you to seek counseling at BOSASNet on
3959119, 72659891 or our Facebook page or twitter – BOSASNet.